December 10
One of the most joyful yet difficult preparations I have been through is preparing for the adoption of my daughter. I had to physically prepare by building a wheelchair accessible bathroom, I had to financially prepare not only for today, but also for the future when I am too old to support her. I had to emotionally prepare as my life was drastically changing forever.
This preparation took my down a very scary path. Was I doing the right thing for her and for my family? Could I give her everything she needed so she could develop to the best of her ability? Would I have time for my own children and their families someday? What will happen when it is time for her to live on her own? Will other people be able to continue what I had started? Will I be able to let go some day?
I learned that sometimes there are no answers and that it is okay to lean on others for support. I learned to be very patient because no matter how much preparing I did I was never really ready! I learned to take one day at a time and to look around me at the beauty God created: a beautiful child that may always be a child and be happy with the simple things in life!
During this time, I often asked God if I was doing the right thing. Then a big smile would come across my daughter's face and she would giggle and give me a big wet kiss and I knew God’s answer. I knew he chose my family to provide a safe and loving environment. I may never be fully prepared, but through the ups and downs God is watching over us and I know we will be okay.
Michele Brockie
This preparation took my down a very scary path. Was I doing the right thing for her and for my family? Could I give her everything she needed so she could develop to the best of her ability? Would I have time for my own children and their families someday? What will happen when it is time for her to live on her own? Will other people be able to continue what I had started? Will I be able to let go some day?
I learned that sometimes there are no answers and that it is okay to lean on others for support. I learned to be very patient because no matter how much preparing I did I was never really ready! I learned to take one day at a time and to look around me at the beauty God created: a beautiful child that may always be a child and be happy with the simple things in life!
During this time, I often asked God if I was doing the right thing. Then a big smile would come across my daughter's face and she would giggle and give me a big wet kiss and I knew God’s answer. I knew he chose my family to provide a safe and loving environment. I may never be fully prepared, but through the ups and downs God is watching over us and I know we will be okay.
Michele Brockie